Monday, January 29, 2018
Boredom is the Root of All Evil
I don't think Sam Storms has any idea why people are in bondage to sin. I don't believe he has any experience at all in the matter. Experience assists in our comprehension of everything.
As a longtime pornography addict, I have experience, sadly enough. I can say unequivocally and without reservation that boredom was never the real factor in my addiction. At first glance, boredom definitely seemed to be the cause. As a child, I would often tell my mother how bored I was. She didn't know what to do with me.
My father was an angry man, and I needed relief from fear: fear of him, fear of God abandoning me (my parents were Pentecostal, and one of my most traumatic moments as a child was watching Salem Kirban's 666 at our local Assemblies of God), and fear of people in general. I was a sensitive child and I was full of anxiety. Later I absorbed my father's anger. I did not like people. I needed them but I did not want to know them. People were a disappointment. At the same time, I read the Bible and attended church. I loved Scripture. God offered relief from my fear and my anger, but God is Spirit remember? God does not always make his presence so easily known.
As a child, God delights to be easily found. We find him in Scripture, in creation, in the daily miracles of life, and so on and so on. As we grow older, and we encounter difficulties, he hides himself. He wants us to seek him with diligence, with faith, and with perseverance. These are character traits he seeks to draw out of us. Yet if we have been abused, if we struggle daily with anxiety, fear, insecurity, or anger because our most precious relationships have been more destructive than constructive, we lack these traits, and we find relief from this emotional trauma where we can find it easily. We find relief in sin. We find relief in pornography, in alcoholism, in outbursts of anger, in fornication, and now in the persistent audio and video that bombard us.
To say that boredom binds us is a very superficial analysis of the problem. Boredom is there, no doubt, but it is not the thing that we crave relief from. God is not a drag. In all my years of struggling with pornography, I never once believed that. Pornography always offered a much more accessible relief from the pain that I felt.
The struggle remains, yet today, after all these years, I am able, with small yet increasing amounts of perseverance, diligence, and faith, to find Him. With God, I have never been bored.
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